Old Doug
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Joined: 5/12/2011 From: Atlanta, Georgia, US Status: offline
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I miss my friends. It's an odd thing - I haven't seen any of you more than 3 or 4 times, and some of you I've never seen, like Fingers, Eddie, Franklin, Ibetian... Do you hear them - they are flapping in the near distance, the tattered gonfalons of a city on a hill, a wholly imaginary thing, otherwise I'm just sitting motionless except for the slight rocking motion due to the beating of my heart. How "steady state" do we have to be? We obviously have different amplitudes in our lives, more or less highs and lows, so to speak, and what is the best way to have it? How important is joy, without the capacity to suffer, and would it even exist? The cost involved in hitting some of the highs - is it worth it? Excesses of food and drink - doubtless they whittle away at our life expectancy, but looking back I wouldn't give many of them up. They are part of me; certain baseborn sentiments I cannot surrender. I have slowed down, though, in the day-to-day and month-over-month proceedings, and probably just as well. For many of us, just as we get to really know how life is, life is about done with us. To take a relatively sour look at it, life is going from one mistake to another, with (hopefully) substantial periods of time in-between. I've had, and am having, a good life, yet looking back there's a lot of mistakes, the broken windlestraws of my existence. Okay, yes - I felt like using some archaic words today. The contemplation of things is more and more pleasurable to me as I get older. I can sit and stare into infinity, and the view is good, and people have been doing it for tens of thousands of years.
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